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long a-coming?" He then said, "I charge you, see to it that you meet me at the right hand of God at the great day. At another time he exclaimed, "Oh, what a mercy it is to have such a rock to build upon as the Lord Jesus Christ! I have found him to be a firm rock that will not fail. What a mercy it is to have a covenant God, a covenant that is so well ordered in all things and sure, that is all my salvation, all my desire! I have found him to be a covenant keeping God. He said to his wife," My dear, do you speak of the goodness of God towards me, for I want a tongue but not a heart to praise him."

A friend said, "I hope your tongue will be loosed again to praise him in this world:" he answered, "if not, we shall praise him in heaven together; how good God is, he is all love; all goodness." He then said to some of his flock that were by him, "hold out and hold on. I trust I have begotten you both in Christ Jesus, may the Lord pour down a plentiful effusion of his Spirit upon you." "What attendance have I got," he exclaimed," Jesus is with me, angels are my guardians, the blessed Spirit is my com forter and supporter, and you, my dear spiritual friends, waiting on me, and my dear wife, the best of women: but don't think highly of me, for if you have seen a measure of grace

in me,

you have seen a great deal of corruption; a little longer and the Lord will release me." To a friend who said, "I hope he will restore you again," he replied, "no, that is not to to be expected." Just afterwards he said, “my eyes fail, I am going."

To Mrs. Darracott he said, "I want a new tongue to praise God here, but if not here, I shall have a new heart and tongue to praise him in heaven." When taking some refreshment, he exclaimed, "Blessed be God for this meal," and a friend coming in, he observed to him, "I have often sat with you at the table of the Lord here, I am now going to sit around his board above; these have been days in which I have taken great delight, when I have gone to the house of God in company with you." To a friend who came to visit him, he said, " how do you do, my dear friend, "I have fought the good fight, and have finished my course, and kept the faith, &c." He said to his wife, "I must leave you without any formality: when will the day dawn, and the shadows flee away?" When she asked him whether he was warm, he answered," he had a general warmth over his body and a general calm over his soul."

Two days before he died, waking in a very delightful frame, he desired that the apothecary might be sent for, that he might know

what he thought of his case; when the apothecary came, he gave but little hope. Mr. Darracott answered, "all is well, blessed be God I know in whom I have believed, and can rely on the promises, they are all mine; especially that, "I will never leave nor forsake thee." I am sure he will not." He desired that the church might be called together to pray for him and to give him up to the Lord; afterwards, when symptoms of recovery appeared, he called on those in the room with him to bless God for it, and said, "when thou wilt call I will hear and answer. O blessed promise, I have found it made good to me. Should the Lord raise me up again, surely praise will become this house."

The night before he died, he said, "O what a good God have I in Christ Jesus, I would praise him, but my lips cannot. Eternity will be too short to speak his praises." He earnestly desired his tongue might be loosed to speak the praises of God, and it was granted. The night before he died, he was in a delightful frame, full of heavenly joy, with his intellectual faculties as strong as ever. When the apothecary came in, he said, O Mr. K. what a mercy it is to be interested in the atoning blood of Christ. You tell me I am dying, how long do you think it will be first?" It was answered "that is uncertain to a few hours." "Will it be to-night?"

ever,

said he; it was answered, "I believe you will survive the night." "Well," he exclaimed, "all is well, I am ready." "This, sir," addressing the apothecary, "is agreeable to the doctrine I have at all times preached, that I now come to the Lord as a vile sinner, trusting on the merits and precious blood of my dear Redeemer. O grace, grace, free grace!" He desired to see some of his flock, but when they came, his spirits were exhausted by talking nearly three quarters of an hour. He said to them, how"in the faith of that doctrine I have preached to you, I am going to die." He then related his experience of the goodness of God to him in his sickness, and said, "if I had a thousand lives to live I would live them all for Christ; I have cast anchor on him and rely on his blood, and am going to venture my all upon him." He then took his leave of each in a very solemn manner, and said, "watch your hearts and keep them with all diligence, for out of them is the issue of life." When he saw Mrs. Darracott weeping, he said, "Weep not for me, or yet for yourself, for you are a child of the covenant. I am going to see Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, and all that are got to glory. Yet," said he," should this be a ́delusion? but it is not, for I have the roll in my bosom to be my admittance into heaven,

and the testimony of conscience within: my evidences are clear." He then repeated these verses of Dr. Watts.

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My God, and can a humble child
That loves thee with a flame so high,
Be ever from thy face exil'd,
Without the pity of thine eye.

Impossible! for thine own hands

Have tied my heart so fast to thee,
And in thy book the promise stands,
That where thou art thy friends must be."

He adored the riches of free grace, and said, "the Lord had been just if he had sent me to hell, it was free grace that has saved me, and it was free grace that I have preached to others." To one who said, "sir, you are going to receive the fruits of your labours;" he answered "no, it is all free grace, grace.

He took the apothecary by the hand, and said, "farewell, my dear friend, I thank you for all that care, trouble, and kindness, you have taken with and for me. Blessed be God, all is well, all is well. I am now going to see dear Williams, Doddridge, and the rest of the glorified saints, Farewell, my friend, a good night to you." The morning he died, his wife came in and said, "my dear, you are just on the borders of glory;" he said, "I could not have thought it, had not the physician and

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