XII. She could not figure forth a happy fate, Eveu for this lite from heaven so newly come ; The earth must needs be doubly desom late To him scarce parted from a fairer home : Such boding heavier on her bosom sate One night, as, standing in the iwia light gloam, She strained her eyes beyond that dizzy verge At whose foot faintly breaks the future's surge. XIII. Poor little spirit! naught but shame and woe Nurse the sick heart whose lifeblood nurses thine : Yet not those only; love hath tri umphed so, As for thy sake makes sorrow more divine : And yet, though thou be pure, the world is foe To purity, if born in such a shrine : And, having trampled it for struggling thence, Smiles to itself, and calls it Providence. X. And so, though altered Mordred came less oft, And winter frowned where spring had laughed before, In his strange eyes, yet half her sad ness doffed, And in her silent patience loved him more : Sorrow had made her soft heart yet more soft, And a new life within her own she bore Which made her tenderer, as she felt it move Beneath her breast, a refuge for her love. XI. This babe, she thought, would surely bring him back, And be a bond forever them between ; Before its eyes the sullen tempest-rack Would fade, and leave the face of heaven serene ; And love's return doth more than fill the lack, Which in his absence withered the heart's green ; And yet a dim foreboding still would fit Between her and her hope to darken it. And hush itself, as who with shud dering guess Harks through the gloom and dreads e'en now to feel Through his hot breast the icy slide of steel. XV. But, at that heart-beat, while in dread In the low wind the honeysuckles gleam, she was, XVIII. The apathy, ere a erime resolved is done, Is scarce less dreadful than remorse for crime ; XXI. Day wore at last: the evening star arose, And throbbing in the sky grew red and set ; Then with a guilty, wavering step he goes To the hid nook where they so on had met XXIV. His heart went out within him like a spark Dropt in the sea ; wherever he made bold Toturn hiseyes, he saw, all stiffandstark, Pale Margaret lying dead ; the lavish gold Of her loose hair seemed in the cloudy dark To spread a glory, and a thousand fold XXVII. Now, on the second day there was to be A festival in church: from far and near Came flocking in the sunburnt peas. antry, And knights and dames with stately antique cheer, Blazing with pomp, as if all faërie Had emptied her quaint halls, or, as it were, The illuminated marge of some old book, While we were gazing, life and motion It grew up like a darkness everywhere, Filling the vast cathedral; - sud took. denly, From the dense mass a boy's clear treble broke Like lightning, and the full-toned choir awoke. XXVIII. When all were entered, and the roving eyes Of all were stayed, some upon faces bright, Someon the priests, some on the traceries That decked the slumber of a marble knight, And all the rustlings over that arise From reccgnizing tokens of delight, When friendly glances meet, then silent ease Spread o'er the multitude by slow degrees. XXIX. Then swelled the organ: up through choir and nave The music trembled with an inward thrill Of bliss at its own grandeur: wave on wave Its flood of mellow thunder rose, until The hushed air shivered with the throb it gave, Then, poising for a moment, it stood still, And sankand roseagain, to burstinspray That wandered into silence far away. XXXII. Through gorgeous windows shone the sun aslant, Brimming the church with gold and purple mist, Meet atmosphere to bosom that rich chant, Where fifty voices in one strand did twist, Their varicoloredtones, and left no want To the delighted soul, which sank abyssed In the warm music cloud, while, far below, The organ heaved its surges to and fro. its song, XXX. Like to a mighty heart the music seemed, That yearns with melodies it cannot speak, Until, in grand despair of what it dreamed, In the agony of effort it doth break, Yet triumphs breaking; on it rushed and streamed And wantoned in its might, as when a lake, Long pent among the mountains, bursts its walls And in one crowding gush leaps forth and falls. XXXIII. As if a lark should suddenly drop dead While the blue air yet trembled with So snapped at once that music's golden thread, Struck by a nameless fear that leapt along From heart to heart, and like a shadow spread With instantaneous shiver through the throng, So that some glanced behind, as half aware A hideous shape of dread were stand ing there. XXXI. Deeper and deeper shudders shook the air, As the huge bass kept gathering heavily, Like thunder when it rouses in its lair, And with its hoarse growl shakes the low-hung sky, XXXVII. Nothing they saw, but a low voice was heard Threading the oninous silence of that fear, Gentle and terrorless as if a bird, Wakened by some volcano's giare, should cheer The murk air with his song; yet every word In the cathedral's farthest arch seemed near, As if it spoke to every one apart, Like the clear voice of conscience in XL. “This little spirit with imploring, eyes Wanders alone the dreary wild of space; The shadow of his pain forever lies Upon my soul in this new dwelling place; His loneliness makes me in Paradise More lonely, and, unless I see his face, Even here for grief could I lie down and die, Save for my curse of immortality. XLI. " World after world he sees around him swim Crowded with happy souls, that take each heart. no heed |