35 O world, as God has made it! all is beauty; No, my Lucrezia; bear with me for once: You turn your face, but does it bring your heart? 5 I'll work then for your friend's friend, never fear, Treat his own subject after his own way, Fix his own time, accept too his own price, Both of one mind, as married people use, And mine the man's bared breast she curls inside. serve For each of the five pictures we require: 25 It saves a model. So! keep looking so― My serpentining beauty, rounds on rounds! While she looks-no one's: very dear, no less. -You, at the point of your first pride in me (That's gone, you know), but I, at every point; My youth, my hope, my art, being all toned down 40 To yonder sober pleasant Fiesole. There's the bell clinking from the chapel-top; That length of convent-wall across the way Holds the trees safer, huddled more inside; The last monk leaves the garden; days decrease, 45 And autumn grows, autumn in every thing. Eh? the whole seems to fall into a shape As if I saw alike my work and self And all that I was born to be and do, A twilight-piece. Love, we are in God's hand. 50 How strange now looks the life he makes us lead; So free we seem, so fettered fast we are! I feel he laid the fetter: let it lie! This chamber for example-turn your headAll that's behind us! You don't understand 55 Nor care to understand about my art, But you can hear at least when people speak: be Behold Madonna!-I am bold to say. 60 I can do with my pencil what I know, What I see, what at bottom of my heart I do not boast, perhaps: yourself are judge No sketches first, no studies, that's long past: I do what many dream of all their lives. 70-Dream? strive to do, and agonize to do, And fail in doing. I could county twenty such On twice your fingers, and not leave this town, Who strive-you don't know how the others strive To paint a little thing like that you smeared 75 Carelessly passing with your robes afloat,— Yet do much less, so much less, Someone says, (I know his name, no matter)—so much less! Well, less is more, Lucrezia: I am judged. There burns a truer light of God in them, 80 In their vexed beating stuffed and stopped-up brain, Heart, or whate'er else, than goes on to prompt mine. Their works drop groundward, but themselves, I know, Reach many a time a heaven that's shut to me, 85 Enter and take their place there sure enough, Though they come back and cannot tell the world. My works are nearer heaven, but I sit here. The sudden blood of these men! at a wordPraise them, it boils, or blame them, it boils too. 90 I, painting from myself and to myself, Know what I do, am unmoved by men's blame 95 Rightly traced and well ordered; what of that? Speak as they please, what does the mountain care? Ah, but a man's reach should exceed his grasp, Or what's a heaven for? All is silver-gray, Placid and perfect with my art: the worse! 100 I know both what I want and what might gain; And yet how profitless to know, to sigh "Had I been two, another and myself, Our head would have o'erlooked the world-" No doubt. Yonder's a work now, of that famous youth 105 The Urbinate who died five years ago. ('Tis copied, George Vasari sent it me.) Pouring his soul, with kings and popes to see, He means right—that, a child may understand. 115 Still, what an arm! and I could alter it: But all the play, the insight and the stretch— Out of me, out of me! And wherefore out? Had you enjoined them on me, given me soul, We might have risen to Rafael, I and you! 120 Nay, Love, you did give all I asked, I thinkMore than I merit, yes, by many times. But had you-oh, with the same perfect brow, And perfect eyes, and more than perfect mouth, And the low voice my soul hears, as a bird 125 The fowler's pipe, and follows to the snareHad you, with these the same, but brought a mind! Some women do so. Had the mouth there urged, "God and the glory! never care for gain. The present by the future, what is that? 130 Live for fame, side by side with Agnolo ! Rafael is waiting: up to God, all three!" I might have done it for you. So it seems: In this world, who can do a thing, will not; Yet the will's somewhat-somewhat, too, the power 140 And thus we half-men struggle. At the end, God, I conclude, compensates, punishes. 'Tis safer for me, if the award be strict, That I am something underrated here, Poor this long while, despised, to speak the truth. 145 I dared not, do you know, leave home all day, For fear of chancing on the Paris lords. The best is when they pass and look aside; But they speak sometimes; I must bear it all. Well may they speak! That Francis, that first time, 150 And that long festal year at Fontainebleau! In that humane great monarch's golden look,— 155 Over his mouth's good mark that made the smile, One arm about my shoulder, round my neck, The jingle of his gold chain in my ear, I painting proudly with his breath on me, All his court round him, seeing with his eyes, 160 Such frank French eyes, and such a fire of souls Profuse, my hand kept plying by those hearts,— And, best of all, this, this, this face beyond, This in the background, waiting on my work, |