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mitted against thy Divine Majesty ; I confess it bears no Proportion to the Heinoutness of my Offences; () do thou in much Mercy look upon me, and let the infinite Merits of
my dear Redeemer supply all my Defects; and refuse not, I beseech thee, for his dear Sake, to be reconciled unto me, and to admit me into thy Favour, without which I am of all Creatures the most miserable.
O Lord, there is nothing that I desire fo much, as to be delivered from the Power and Dominion of my Sins, and to be at per-, feet Peace with thee; for I have no Rett, so long as I think I am under thy Displeasure. I humbly therefore beg leave at this Time to renew the Vows and Resolutions I have often made, of loving and obeying thee; and for that End, I offer unto thy divine Majesty-my Soul and Body, and all that is mine, humbly beseeching thee to take them into thy Custody, that being in Safety under thy Protection, they may be for ever devoted to thee and thy Service.
It is not, O Lord, with any Confidence in my own Strength, that I presume to give up myself to thy Obedience, (for alas ! I am fenfible that my Heart is very false, and too easily drawn away by the deceitful
Tempter) but all my Hope and all my Dependence is in thy Alinighty Power and Goodness; and to that I humbly fly for Help against the cruel Enemy of my Soul, who is daily lying in wait to destroy me. I know thy Grace is sufficient for me, and therefore in thee do I put my Trust. Thou art my Hope and my Confidence, my Saviour and mighty Deliverer; O never leave me then to myself, nor to the Weakness of my own corrupt Nature; but let thy Holy Spirit be always present with me to defend me in all my Conflicts, to support me under my many Weaknesses and Infirmities, to instruct me in all difficult Cafes, and to carry me in Safety through the Trials and Temptations of this dangerous and deceitful World ; and grant, O merciful Father, that I may never grieve that blessed Spirit, nor fall into thofe Sins and Impurities, which will cause him to leave and forsake me, and to abandon me to my own foolish and perverse Will; but give me Grace in all Things to follow his Guidance and Direction, and to devote myself entirely to a Life of Virtue and Religion ; that denying all Ungodliness, and worldly Lusts, I may live righteously, foberly, and godly, in this present World; and after I have ferved thee
faithfully faithfully in this Life, I may be received into those blessed Regions of everlasting Reft and Peace, which thou hast reserved for them that truly and fincerely love and serve thee; through the Merits of thy beloved Son Jesus Christ the Righteous, Amen.
A Confeffion of Sins, to be used by a grievous
Sinner, who having led a very wicked Life, is now come to a Sense of his Sins, and depres to humble himself before God for the same.
Most mighty God! Thou art a con
suming Fire to all rebellious and impenitent Sinners; a dreadful Avenger of such as are obstinately wicked, but a most compassionate Father to all those that truly repent, and turn unto thee; O how shall I dare to speak unto thee, who am all over Sin and Pollution ; a Creature vile and loathsome in my own Eyes by reason of my Sins, but much more so in thine, who art a God of infinite Purity and Holiness, and hatest Iniquity with a perfect Hatred ! O Lord, when I look back upon my past Life, I am astonished at thy Patience and
Long-Suffering towards me, and must acknowledge, that hadst thou dealt with me as I have deserved, I had long before this been condemned to endless Misery and Torments. For ever adored be that Goodness of thine, which has dealt so graciously with me; for ever praised be that Mercy, which has snatched me out of the Jaws of the devouring Lion, and saved me from the Pit of Destruction, which I was running headlong into; for ever magnified be that Grace which has at last touched my Heart with a Sense of my Sins, and given me this opportunity of humbling myself before thee.
O Lord, I do now most sorrowfully be wail and lament before thee, the Sins and Iniquities of my past Life, which are so exceeding many and great, that as I am confounded at the Guilt of them, so I know not where to begin when I would confefs them before thee. Even from my Youth up have I been a rebellious and disobedient Sinner, a Contemner of thy Laws, and one of those wretched Fools, that have made a Mock at Sin, and would not hearken to wise Counsel and Reproof; I have grieved and despised my Parents, derided my Superiors, and followed the
Dictates of my own foolish and perverse Will; my Mind has been overspread with Blindness and Ignorance. Folly and false Reasonings, and almost every Power and Faculty of
my Soul is corrupted and defaced, that Time which should have been employed to holy and excellent Purposes, I have either consumed upon my Lusts, or trifled away in vain and unprofitable Pursuits.
Wretched Fool that I was! How have I preferred a Life of Folly and Madness, of Riot and Extravagance, of Noise and Disorder; a Life that has yielded no other Fruits, but those bitter ones of Shame and Remorse, of Sorrow and Affidion, before the Peace and Pleasure, and Serenity of a virtuous, sober, and religious Conversa, tion ! How have I thought the Ways of Religion dull and unpleasant; and nothing any further eligible, than as it conduced to the Pleasures and Profits of this World !
O my God, I have finned against thee with a high Hand, and have led a Life directly opposite to thy blessed Will; I have moft grievously neglected the Duties of Religion both in public and private, having spent little of my Time in thy Service, and that little, (O Lord, thou know