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the Merciful, and the many and great Mercies I daily receive of thee, and that I shall stand in Need of much more and greater Mercy from thee at the great Day of our Lord.
I know the pure in Heart are blessed, for thou hast promised they shall see thee, O God. And yet so insensible, and unmoved have I been, that I have taken little Care to cleanse myself from all Filthiness of Flesh and Spirit, so as to fanctify thee, my Lord God, in my Heart, whereby I might have a good Hope of seeing thee, O God, in whose Presence is Fulness of Joy for evermore.
I know, to this Bliss, Holiness is the Way; and yet how feeble and inconstant have been my Endeavours after it !
IX. I have not been so careful in employing my Time as I ought; but have spent much of it in Eating and Drinking, and Sleeping, beyond what the Support and Refreshment of Nature required, and too much in what I have called Recreation and Diversion. I have spent too much Time in dressing and adorning my Body; and in paying and receiving formal or impertinent Visits; and have several other Ways spent L 2
much of my precious Time idly or unprofitably to myself or others.
How little Time have I spent in Reading, Meditation, and Self-Examination !
How little in Mortification, Abstinence, Fasting, and Retirement? And
yet of my
Life is far spent, and the Night of Death is at Hand, when 1:0 Man can work!
X. How backward have I been to examine the State of my Soul, and to call my Sins to Remembrance, so as to mourn and be affected with a godly Sorrow for them.
XI. O! how strong a Propension have I to do Evil! and how strange an Unwillingness to do Good!
I confess, and lament, and bewail my wretched State. I am corrupt, I have ftrayed out of the Way of Life and Happinefs ; my Conscience accuseth me, and my Heart condemneth me. Yet, lo, thou, oʻGod, art greater than my Heart, and knoweft all Things— Here more Particulars may be mentioned.] And, especially, I lament and bewail before thee, from whom nothing is hid, that I have grieroufly offended thee by-Here name the particular Sins.]
XII. These my Sins, with many more that I cannot remember, are all in thy
Sight, and have left their wretched and miserable Effects upon my Mind and Heart ; whereby thy Image, in which I was created, is become defaced; and I am estranged from thee, my God, my true and ouly Good and Happiness. So that when I loolz back upon the Errors and Miscarriages of my Life, and reflect how little I poffefs of the Spirit and Temper of the Gospel, Aly Heart trembleth for Fear of thee, and I am afraid of thy Judgments. O! how shall I appear before the Judgment-Seat of Christ, when he hall come in his Power with the holy Angels, to judge every Man according to his Works, and take Vengeance on them that obey not the Gospel, since my Life has been so unconformable thereto!
But I repent, O my God, I repent, I accuse and condemn myself, I am grieved, I am troubled and am heartily sorry for these my Misdoings, and turn unto thee with full Purpose and Resolution of sincere Obedience for the Time to come.
And I beseech thee, O Lord, who art. gracious and merciful, long-suffering, and
great Goodness, and the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who died for the Ungodly, for his Sake, and for thy Goodness. Sake, pardon and forgive all my Sins; my L 3
Sins of Ignorance, and those I have committed through Want of Care and Circumspection, but especially, all my wilful Sins, and those Transgressious whereby I have any Ways fcandalized the Christian Profefsion, or occafioned others to fall, and which I lament before thee.
O Lord, Holy Father, who alone canst order the unruly Wills and Affections of finful Men, who gavest thy Son to die, that he might redeem us from all Iniquity; pardon and rectify the Impurity of my Heart and Life, all irregular Appetites and Paffions, and every wicked Practice, of what Nature or Kind soever ; that all my Members being mortified from all worldly and carnal Lusts, I may no longer live in the Flesh, to the Lufts of Men, but according to thy Will, O God; and for ever hereafter live godly, righteoufly, and foberly, in this present evil World.
And seeing I am not able to do these Things of myself, strengthen me, I befeech thee, O Lord, with the Holy Ghost, and daily increase in me thy manifold Gifts of Grace; the Spirit of Wisdom and Understanding, the Spirit of Counsel and ghostly Strength, the Spirit of Knowledge and true Godliness; and fill me, O Lord, with the Spirit of thy holy Fear ; that I may have Victory, and Triumph against the Devil, the World, and the Flesh, and at the last obtain the Gift of eternal Life, which thou hast promised to all those that sincerely love and obey thee, through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
Another Form of Confession, which
ufed instead of the former.
Most Great and Glorious Lord God,
just and terrible in thy Judgments to all obstinate and rebellious Sinners, but of infinite Mercy to such as truly repent, and turn unto thee ; look down, I beseech thee, with the Eyes of Mercy, upon me, who now present myself before thee, acknowledging that I am not worthy to lift up my Eyes to the Throne of thy glorious, Majesty. O Lord, my Sins are so many and so great, that it is owing to thy infinite Goodness and Mercy, that I have now an Opportunity of humbling myself before thee, and begging Mercy for my Soul, which, I confefs, has greatly sinned against thee.