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as call upon my friends, those, I mean, who are truly such, to take some little notice of me; and will naturally make those, who are not such in sincerity, rather shy of doing it. To this I impute the silence of many with regard to me, who, before the affliction, that befel me, were ready enough to converse with

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I am much obliged to you for Pearsall's Meditations, especially as it furnishes me with an occasion of writing to you, which is all I have waited for. My friends must excuse me if I write to none but those, who lay it fairly in my way to do so. The inference I am apt to draw from their silence is, that they wish me to be silent too.

I have great reason, my dear Cousin, to be thankful to the gracious Providence, that conducted me to this place. The lady, in whose house I live, is so excellent a person, and regards me with a friend

ship so truly Christian, that I could almost fancy mỳ own Mother restored to life again, to compensate to me for all the friends, I have lost, and all my connexions broken. She has a son at Cambridge in all respects worthy of such a mother, the most amiable young man I ever knew. His natural and acquired endowments are very considerable, and as to his virtues, I need only say, that he is a Christian. It ought to be a matter of daily thanksgiving to me, that I am admitted into the society of such persons, and I pray God to make me, and keep me worthy of them.

Your brother Martin has been very kind to me, having wrtiten to me twice in a stile, which, though it was once irksome to me, to say the least, I now know how to value. I pray God to forgive me the many light things I have both said and thought of him and his labours. Hereafter I shall consider him as a burning and a shining light, and as one of those, who having turned many to righteousness, shall shine hereafter as the stars for ever and ever.

So much for the state of my heart, as to my spirits I am cheerful and happy, and having peace with God, have peace within myself. For the continuance of this blessing I trust to Him who gives

it, and they, who trust in Him, shall never be con

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are not essential to friendship, but they seem to be a natural fruit of it, when they are the only intercourse, that can be had. And a friendship producing no sensible effects is so like indifference, that the

appearance may easily deceive even an acute discerner. I retract however all that I said, in my last, upon this subject, having reason to suspect, that it proceeded from a principle, which I would discourage in myself upon all occasions, even a pride, that felt itself hurt upon a mere suspicion of neglect. I have so much cause for humility, and so much need of it too, and every little sneaking resentment is such an enemy to it, that I hope I shall never give quarter to any thing that appears

in the shape of sullenness or self-consequence hereaf ter. Alas! if my best Friend, who laid down his life for me, were to remember all the instances, in which I have neglected him, and to plead them against me in judgment, where should I hide my guilty head in the day of recompence? I will pray therefore for blessings upon my friends, though they cease to be so, and upon my enemies, though they continue such. The deceitfulness of the natural heart is inconceivable; I know well, that I passed upon my friends for a person, at least religiously inclined, if not actually religious, and what is more wonderful, I thought myself a Christian, when I had no faith in Christ, when I saw no beauty in him, that I should desire him, in short when I had neither faith nor love, nor any Christian grace whatever, but a thousand seeds of rebellion instead, ever more springing up in enmity against him. But blessed be God, even the God who is become my salvation. The hail of affliction, and rebuke for sin has swept away the refuge of lies. It pleased the Almighty, in great mercy, to set all my misdeeds before me. At length the storm being past, a quiet, and peaceful serenity of soul succeeded, such as ever attends the gift of living faith in the all-sufficient atonement, and the sweet sense of

mercy and pardon purchased by the blood of Christ. Thus did he break me, and bind me up, thus did he wound me, and his hands made me whole. My dear Cousin, I make no apology for entertaining you with the history of my conversion, because I know you to be a Christian in the sterling import of the appellation. This is however but a very summary account of the matter, neither would a Letter contain the astonishing particulars of it. If we ever meet again, in this world, I will relate them to you by word of mouth, if not, they will serve for the subject of a conference in the next, where I doubt not I shall remember and record them with a gratitude better suited to the subject,

Yours, my dear Cousin, affectionately,

LETTER XVIII,

W. C.

To Mrs. COWPER.

April 17, 1766.

MY DEAR COUSIN,

As in matters unattainable

by reason, and unrevealed in the Scripture, it is im→ possible to argue at all; so in matters concerning

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