And saw the barge that brought her moving down, Far-off, a blot upon the stream, and said
Low in himself, Ah simple heart and sweet,
You loved me, damsel, surely with a love
Far tenderer than my Queen's. Pray for thy soul? Ay, that will I. Farewell too-now at last- Farewell, fair lily. Jealousy in love?'
Not rather dead love's harsh heir, jealous pride ? Queen, if I grant the jealousy as of love, May not your crescent fear for name and fame Speak, as it waxes, of a love that wanes ? Why did the King dwell on my name to me? Mine own name shames me, seeming a reproach, Lancelot, whom the Lady of the lake
Stole from his mother-as the story runs- She chanted snatches of mysterious song Heard on the winding waters, eve and morn She kiss'd me saying, Thou art fair, my child, As a king's son,' and often in her arms She bare me, pacing on the dusky mere.
Would she had drown'd me in it, where'er it be ! For what am I? what profits me my name Of greatest knight? I fought for it, and have it : Pleasure to have it, none; to lose it, pain; Now grown a part of me: but what use in it ? To make men worse by making my sin known? Or sin seem less, the sinner seeming great? Alas for Arthur's greatest knight, a man Not after Arthur's heart! I needs must break These bonds that so defame me: not without She wills it would I, if she will'd it? Who knows? but if I would not, then may God, I pray him, send a sudden Angel down To seize me by the hair and bear me far, And fling me deep in that forgotten mere, Among the tumbled fragments of the hills."
So groan'd Sir Lancelot in remorseful pain, Not knowing he should die a holy man.
QUEEN GUINEVERE had fled the court, and sat There in the holy house at Almesbury
Weeping, none with her save a little maid,
A novice one low light betwixt them burn'd Blurr'd by the creeping mist, for all abroad, Beneath a moon unseen albeit at full,
The white mist, like a face-cloth to the face, Clung to the dead earth, and the land was still.
For hither had she fled, her cause of flight Sir Modred; he the nearest to the King, His nephew, ever like a subtle beast
Lay couchant with his eyes upon the throne, Ready to spring, waiting a chance: for this, He chill'd the popular praises of the King With silent smiles of slow disparagement; And tamper'd with the Lords of the White Horse, Heathen, the brood by Hengist left; and sought To make disruption in the Table Round Of Arthur, and to splinter it into feuds Serving his traitorous end; and all his aims Were sharpen'd by strong hate for Lancelot.
For thus it chanced one morn when all the court, Green-suited, but with plumes that mock'd the may, Had been, their wont, a-maying and return'd, That Modred still in green, all ear and eye, Climb'd to the high top of the garden-wall To spy some secret scandal if he might, And saw the Queen who sat betwixt her best Enid, and lissome Vivien, of her court
The wiliest and the worst; and more than this He saw not, for Sir Lancelot passing by
Spied where he couch'd, and as the gardener's hand Picks from the colewort a green caterpillar, So from the high wall and the flowering grove Of grasses Lancelot pluck'd him by the heel, And cast him as a worm upon the way;
But when he knew the Prince tho' marr'd with dust, He, reverencing king's blood in a bad man, Made such excuses as he might, and these
Full knightly without scorn; for in those days No knight of Arthur's noblest dealt in scorn; But, if a man were halt or hunch'd, in him
By those whom God had made full-limb'd and tall, Scorn was allow'd as part of his defect,
And he was answer'd softly by the King
And all his Table. So Sir Lancelot holp
To raise the Prince who rising, twice or thrice
Full sharply smote his knees, and smiled, and went:
But, ever after, the small violence done Rankled in him and ruffled all his heart, As the sharp wind that ruffles all day long A little bitter pool about a stone On the bare coast.
But when Sir Lancelot told This matter to the Queen, at first she laugh'd Lightly, to think of Modred's dusty fall, Then shudder'd, as the village wife who cries "I shudder, some one steps across my grave; Then laugh'd again, but faintlier, for indeed She half-foresaw that he, the subtle beast, Would track her guilt until he found, and hers Would be for evermore a name of scorn. Henceforward rarely could she front in Hall, Or elsewhere, Modred's narrow foxy face, Heart-hiding smile, and gray persistent eye: Henceforward too, the Powers that tend the soul, To help it from the death that cannot die, And save it even in extremes, began
To vex and plague her. Many a time for hours, Beside the placid breathings of the King, In the dead night, grim faces came and went Before her, or a vague spiritual fear- Like to some doubtful noise of creaking doors, Heard by the watcher in a haunted house, That keeps the rust of murder on the walls— Held her awake: or if she slept, she dream'd An awful dream; for then she seem'd to stand On some vast plain before a setting sun, And from the sun there swiftly made at her A ghastly something, and its shadow flew Before it, till it touch'd her, and she turn'd- When lo her own, that broadening from her feet, And blackening, swallow'd all the land, and in it Far cities burnt, and with a cry she woke. And all this trouble did not pass but grew ; Till ev'n the clear face of the guileless King, And trustful courtesies of household life, Became her bane; and at the last she said, "O Lancelot, get thee hence to thine own land, For if thou tarry we shall meet again,
And if we meet again, some evil chance
Will make the smouldering scandal break and blaze Before the people, and our lord the King." And Lancelot ever promised, but remain'd, And still they met and met. Again she said,
O Lancelot, if thou love me get thee hence."
And then they were agreed upon a night (When the good King should not be there) to meet And part for ever. Passion-pale they met And greeted: hands in hands, and eye to eye, Low on the border of her couch they sat Stammering and staring: it was their last hour, A madness of farewells. And Modred brought His creatures to the basement of the tower
For testimony; and crying with full voice
Traitor, come out, ye are trapt at last," aroused Lancelot, who rushing outward lionlike
Leapt on him, and hurl'd him headlong, and he fell Stunn'd, and his creatures took and bare him off And all was still then she, "The end is come And I am shamed for ever; " and he said, "Mine be the shame; mine was the sin: but rise, And fly to my strong castle overseas : There will I hide thee, till my life shall end, There hold thee with my life against the world." She answer'd, Lancelot, wilt thou hold me so ? Nay friend, for we have taken our farewells. Would God, that thou couldst hide me from myself! Mine is the shame, for I was wife, and thou Unwedded yet rise now, and let us fly, For I will draw me into sanctuary,
And bide my doom." So Lancelot got her horse, Set her thereon, and mounted on his own,
And then they rode to the divided way,
There kiss'd, and parted weeping: for he past, Love-loyal to the least wish of the Queen, Back to his land; but she to Almesbury
Fled all night long by glimmering waste and weald, And heard the Spirits of the waste and weald
Moan as she fled, or thought she heard them moan: And in herself she moan'd "Too late, too late!" Till in the cold wind that foreruns the morn, A blot in heaven, the Raven, flying high,
Croak'd, and she thought, "He spies a field of death; For now the Heathen of the Northern Sea, Lured by the crimes and frailties of the court, Begin to slay the folk, and spoil the land."
And when she came to Almesbury she spake There to the nuns, and said, "Mine enemies Pursue me, but, O peaceful Sisterhood, Receive, and yield me sanctuary, nor ask Her name, to whom ye yield it, till her time To tell you:
and her beauty, grace and power,
Wrought as a charm upon them, and they spared To ask it.
So the stately Queen abode
For many a week, unknown, among the nuns ; Nor with them mix'd, nor told her name, nor sought, Wrapt in her grief, for housel or for shrift, But communed only with the little maid, Who pleased her with a babbling heedlessness Which often lured her from herself; but now, This night, a rumour wildly blown about Came, that Sir Modred had usurped the realm, And leagued him with the heathen, while the King Was waging war on Lancelot: then she thought, "With what a hate the people and the King Must hate me," and bow'd down upon her hands Silent, until the little maid, who brook'd No silence, brake it, uttering, "Late so late! What hour, I wonder, now?" and when she drew No answer, by and by began to hum
An air the nuns had taught her; "Late, so late!” Which when she heard, the Queen look'd up, and said, "O maiden, if indeed you list to sing,
Sing, and unbind my heart that I may weep."
Whereat full willingly sang the little maid.
Late, late, so late! and dark the night and chill ! Late, late, so late! but we can enter still.
Too late, too late! ye cannot enter now.
'No light had we: for that we do repent; And learning this, the bridegroom will relent. Too late, too late! ye cannot enter now.
"No light so late! and dark and chill the night! O let us in, that we may find the light!
Too late, too late: ye cannot enter now.
"Have we not heard the bridegroom is so sweet? O let us in, tho' late, to kiss his feet!
No, no, too late! ye cannot enter now."
So sang the novice, while full passionately, Her head upon her hands, remembering
Her thought when first she came, wept the sad Queen. Then said the little novice prattling to her :
"O pray you, noble lady, weep no more; But let my words, the words of one so small, Who knowing nothing knows but to obey, And if I do not there is penance given—
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