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love with filial affection, but I hope you will be

more successful in future.

I am, Sir,

Your humble servant,

S. TRIMMER,

The style of this letter may perhaps be thought Father severe in parts, but, let it be remembered, that a good deal was requisite in order to rouse the feelings of the young man, and bring him to a sense of his duty. We are happy to add, that the letter had the desired effect: his heart was touched; his sense of honour awakened; and he wrote to his mother with affection and kindness, and to Mrs. Trimmer with proper expressions of gratitude for the benevolent part she had acted towards Mrs. L. The letter contained also a more substantial proof of his reformation, as it enclosed a bill of exchange upon a respectable house in London for 301. and promises of further remittances. These letters were followed by others of the same kind by almost every packet during the life-time of his mother, which, however, was not of long con. tinuance. The fatigue of body she had experienced during her wanderings before she arrived at Brentford; the extreme abstinence she had been driven to, added to anguish of mind, exhausted naturé.

She never enjoyed any degree of

health from the time she came under the notice of Mrs. Trimmer, and in December, 1794, departed this life.

We cannot indeed boast that the subject of this narrative was a person of great merit, or highly deserving of regard, but it was a satisfaction to Mrs. Trimmer, that, by her assistance, under Providence, she was saved from destruction and self-murder; and that her latter days were made as comfortable as circumstances would admit of Mrs. Trimmer also rejoiced in having been able to bring the young man to a sense of duty, and by that means having spared him the bitter pangs which he would probably have known, had his aged mother either fallen by her own hand, or perished through want and famine.

JOURNAL

FOR THE

YEAR 1795.

Jan. 1. O Father of mercies, God of all grace and goodness, how great and numberless have been the instances of thy loving kindness and tender mercies during the course of the last year! My offences have been many, and I fear some of them great, but I humbly trust thou hast graciously pardoned them for Jesus Christ's sake, my beloved, my adorable Saviour. O Father of mercies, how often hast thou refreshed my soul with "the comforts of thy Holy Spirit! never hast thou refused to hearken to the prayer of faith, which I have offered with unfeigned lips! how often hast thou bestowed upon me that peace which passeth all understanding. How bountifully hast thou provided for the temporal wants of me and my dear family. O Lord, how wonderful are the ways of thy Providence and grace. O Almighty Father, I honour, I love, I adore, I worship thee

with all my heart and soul; with my present faculties I cannot fully express the gratitude I feel for thy unspeakable mercies, but now thou hast brought me to the beginning of another year, I again most solemnly devote myself to thy service; resolving, thy grace assisting me, to follow thy commandments in all things, and to endeavour to do thy blessed will. O gracious Father, vouchsafe to regard me as thine adopted child, through Christ Jesus, and bestow on me thy paternal blessing. Extend these blessings also, gracious God, to all my dear children, and keep us evermore in the path that leads to everlasting life. Defend us from all our enemies; grant us whatever we stand in need of; enable us to trust in thee, our only sure rock; our only preserver. Hear my prayers, O God of all goodness, for Jesus Christ's sake!

Jan. 11. O most gracious Father, how unworthy am I of thy loving-kindness! yet I presume to beseech thee to continue to me thy heavenly benediction. O Lord, cast me not off, I earnestly pray; in thee is my trust; in thee is my confi dence; in the midst of my infirmities, my heart, I humbly trust, is most faithfully devoted to thee: yes, most merciful Father, I feel thy goodness most sensibly; I desire thy favour above all things that this world, or thousands of worlds can give! what, indeed, of happiness, or true enjoyment, can a universe bestow, if thy favour

and blessing are wanting? O most gracious God, view not my sinful actions, proceeding, I hope, from no corrupt principle, but from human infirmity; but view the sincere devotion of my heart; the ardent affection of my soul; my hunger and thirst after righteousness. O view me as one of the redeemed of Christ; as sprinkled with the blood of the Lamb. The remembrance of every deviation from duty is grievous unto me; the burden of my sins would be too heavy for me to sustain without my Saviour's aid. O Lord God Almighty, permit me to plead the merits of my Redeemer; I have faith in his blood; I have been baptized in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost; I have spiritually eaten of the body and blood of Christ. Vouchsafe still to regard me as thine adopted child in Christ Jesus. Vouchsafe to grant me thy peace and the comforts of the Holy Ghost for his sake. To these my earnest petitions, I desire, inost merciful Father, to add my humble thanksgivings. O how great have been thy mercies; how unspeakable the benefits bestowed upon me! O Lord, thou hast blessed me with a bountiful hand; let me thank thee with a perfect heart. When will such a heart be mine? most gracious Father, my soul doth bless and magnify thy holy name for all thy goodness towards me and my dear children; particularly I thank thee for giving to one dear child, safe deliverance from the perils and dangers of child-birth,

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